Friday, October 28, 2011


IF THE JOURNEY IS ABOUT DISCOVERNG ME then the path is sometimes too difficult to trail…..
If I see the complete design of the universe,my existence becomes so small,my ego just so ignorable.

Have I been defeated already,or still there r chances of win…….
Everyday seems a mistake all so many times I hav been rubbished n mocked
My definitions in life r oh yes quite quirky but…
After with all dats gone by, who sees any silver lining in the clouds still.

If the journey is about me discovering myself,the path becomes so difficult to trail sometimes…

They say I hav been my own enemy, yes I m my best critic I believe
My deficiencies make me so much of myself,how can I part from all that and be
If I make the criterion and  if  I m the judge ….
Then with the endurance earned and a graceful smile I give myself accolades still.

And then if the journey is all about me…….the path will remain as much difficult to trail..
The design is right and our existences just spread in a small time, I will let myself be…the best I can be…..

Thursday, October 27, 2011

i suspect the design....


     read this statement somewhere when i was some 10 years old.Since then it has stuck in my head.....what is my calling???? thats a question i keep asking myself....sometimes reaching very close to an answer but then there is another searching in my soul and my perspective change,so does the purpose of my life as i define it.If u try and ask urself, Are u doin justice to ur presence on this earth??  There is never any answer because that we will come to know at only the end of the whole game.
               What is one sure shot way that can keep ur heart out of distress,abt the whole purpose thing.One simple random act that u can do each day and say fine now my today's job is done.....
Oft i hav regretted my decisions at the end of the whole drama when i have realised that there was some desire or some greed or some person who took me all the way on the wrong path and pulled me far off from my calling....n by the time i have come to know,i have now miles to walk to reach the destination where that desire or greed first came n then restart my journey all over again.Has the whole design of life been made so COMPLEX on purpose.So that we keep moving round and round in circles.....
Sometimes it makes me wonder,why m i supposed to go through certain situations in life when to my lousy brain they just seem pointless......n not adding anything towards my journey in life.Seems like a devine plan to put such statements into the head of wandering souls like me....So till i understand my real calling is to suspect the design and try to find the purpose of it.....n how its adding to my progress in the journey called life.      

Tuesday, October 25, 2011


              Kaise kaise jina sikha, has ke rona ro ke hasna sikha.
               Kaun ata kaun jata, kaun kehta kaun sunta,
              Sabhi masroof the itne
               Ki  fir hamne ap hi kehna, ap se hi sunna sikha.

              Mausam badalte dekhe,pathther pighalte bhi dekhe,
            Par hairan to tab hue jab ki  zajbaat badalte dekhe.

            Andhiyaan uthte dekhi, ghatayen ghumadte dekhi,
           Ye sab to yuhi hua krta hai,par achanak fir fitrate badalti dekhi.

            Ghazab ka jazba tha “shabda” mein bhi lekin
            Jab tak samjha gaya samjha tera jalwa e duniya…
             Na samjha to usi  to nazmo mein pirona sikha.