जाने  कब ज़िन्दगी से  बैर हो गया  ,जिस जिस को चाहा वही गैर हो गया

हम तो अपना ग़म  रो रो कर  सुना रहे थे ,बज़्म में वही शेर मशहूर हो गया.

 एक ख्वाबों की बस्ती में जिया करते थे हम भी ,कुछ लव्जो को पिरोया लिखा करते थे हम भी ,

जाने कब उन जज्बातों का होना फजूल हो गया ,जिस जिस को चाहा वही गैर हो गया 

जाने कब ज़िन्दगी से ........

आँखों में चमकती सी बात लिए आये थे कुछ खास पोशीदा से जज़्बात लिए आये थे ,

इस शेहेर ने वो ज़ुल्म किया की ये वजूद ही आम हो गया,जिस जिस को चाहा वही गैर हो गया

जाने कब ज़िन्दगी से..............

पर अब भी एक कसक सी बनी रहती है "शब्दा" में कहीं,कि फिर उन गलियों में जाएँ देखें ,

कि क्या कही कोई हमारे नाम पर भी बदनाम हो गया,जिस जिस को चाहा वही गैर हो गया 

जाने कब ज़िन्दगी से..............

                                        FOR AMY WINEHOUSE….

This isn’t a world for the faint hearted,it just cannot be,after all Charles Darwin gave the theory…..THE SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST.Only the fit survive,rest keep struggling all their lives..Some win some loose.Sometimes I feel does anyone even care about the feelings of anyone 

                                             Amy Winehouse so dearly loved by all her fans around the globe just went away…..shocking.I don’t think she would have wanted to just checkout like this if she had an insight of how much she is loved the world over.Human emotions are unsuppressable….so even today’s world has as much emotional contest as was the times of Shakespeare,its only that the world now believes in hiding it,even if some of us may die for the want of love and acceptance. 

                                               And all these news coming up,that everyone could see her killing herself.thats the saddest part of the story,if all knew then what stopped them to help her.Amy was just like any other little girl unable to cope up in this world of grown up,made up people.Greater than anything else what our world requires is acceptance….a small little child should be fed in his head deeply that he is accepted as he is with all his attributes.The theory of wrong and right as it is engraved in our head from our kindergarten days needs to be challenged,soon.Had Amy been accepted as she was with all her quirkyness and more than that if this world had tried to show her more often that she belongs here,as much as all of us she might be here with us creating soulful music.

                                                 Her songs ‘You know I m no good’ and “Tears dry on their own”…..were my soulmates during my difficult times.So I know what she must be going through during the time of their creation.There was an innocence in her appearance that looms long after everytime you see her picture or video or hear her voice.And a bold statement that always echoed in her songs,that she is TROUBLED,can there be anyone bolder than her in accepting her flaws. 

                                                 The artist in her was seeking perfection in this world full of turmoil and pretention.Getting addicted to substances was the way she chose to forget about this world,and to drown in music and her creations.Had she been gifted genetically by better coping skills or had she yearned to learn them to fit in this world she would have survived but her unapologetic statement that she doesn’t want to fit here,took her to the dark corners and that darkness  has engulfed her finally.The beautiful soulful artist in her deserved much more than a short span of 27years.My heart aches to have lost Amy….and a chance to experience more of  her voice and creations.Hope the little girl in her experiences the perfection of the God’s world up there…the perfection she kept seeking in our chaotic world but never could get it.               –love u Amy. 

"Most of each n every day goes by trying to find the missin peices of the puzzle;
seeing life in different lights as i pass through different phases,
Every step cautious every step clean;so as not to break my delusions;
n then comes a turn steep n cruel,prejudices dont usually survive it,
It's time for a new set of ideas to emerge"....yet again -shabda

understanding me....more.

Cherish ur lifegivin emotion…(a page from my diary….for all of u to ponder)

We constantly keep deciphering the same truth so differently each time lookin through the glasses of our prejudices and beliefs.Just .like every time I look through my window,the outside world stares back at me in different shades,sometimes gloomy,sometimes joyous,.it may be so that the world is reflecting my own inner characterstics…my own basic lifegiving emotion at that moment of time.I think,just .like those life saving drugs that we prescribe in medicine,one certain intense emotion be it love, be it jealosy,be it anger…be it pride…it should every day nourish

our brains,churn it to keep it moving…forward or backward whatever way.

                                                                                                 -amy

            

ek khwab...

pani ki satah par ek khwab sa beh raha hai,aati jati sabhi lehron ko seh raha hai,fir bhi har guzarte pal se bas yahi bat keh raha hai,aane wali zindgi teri bas ek aks mera hai.